It's Tuesday, Not Monday

Hope you had a great 4th! And enjoyed the long weekend! I sure did!



But, now it's over, so it's back to the grind (only for 8 more days after today!)

At least I had a helper come visit :-)

All Good Things Come To An End

I am super sad that this week is ending. For many reasons.

It was Kevin's first full week on Summer break. Yup. That means I got to spend all day, every day with him. We took advantage and decide to have Family Fun Week (more to come in future posts) and did lots of fun mini vacations. Tomorrow is the first day of the first tournament for his summer gig, so I will be back to playing the single mom role once again. Sigh. It was a great week though!

The big reason though is that this weekend marks 12 weeks since our life was changed, and little man was born! It doesn't seem like it's been that long, but alas, it has been. Which means Monday morning my desk chair will no longer be empty. :-( My routine that I've established over the past 12 weeks will no longer be. My day will no longer depend on nap time, or feeding time, but meeting times. I will spend 8+ hours a day away from my baby. That's more than double the amount of time I've been away in the past 12 weeks combined. In one day. My 4pm anticipation will no longer be for Kevin to come home to US, but for me to come home to THEM.

My heart breaks at the thought of not being with him all day. At the thought of what I will be missing out on. At the sound of every cry while he tries to take a bottle.

My desire my entire life was to be able to stay at home with my kids and raise them. Babies need their mommas, and mommas need their babies. We are doing everything possible to make that dream a reality, and I have total faith that it WILL be a reality, I just don't know if it will be in a week, a month, or a year.

At least I know that Logan will be home with Kevin since he's off for the summer (actual, as of now for the Fall too...) and when he's busy, both grandmothers are itching to get some time with the baby, so at least he'll be well taken care of by family.

Still it doesn't ease the pain that come Monday my daily life will look totally different than it did this past Monday.

Rush

Any of you who have been to college know the madness of the first week. The thrill of new classes. The stress of looking over the syllabus. The joy of seeing a familiar face. The dread of buy the books.

I never seemed to dread buying my books as much as I dreaded everyone buying theirs. I worked in the off campus bookstore, and while everyone else was enjoying the first week of class and getting settled in, I was busting my butt and working 70 hour weeks on top of going to class! It definitely sucked, but then being able to relax and only work a handful of hours throughout the semester made up for it.

Well, I never seemed to be able to get out of the textbook business, just moved up a bit. Both our bookstores and our warehouse are experiencing rush right now, and since part of my job is accounts receivable guess who gets the joy of dealing with all the money problems. Including counting 18 register drawers for each store to make sure there aren't too many mistakes before they go to the bank. Oh yeah, and I did I mention that I do the payroll too? So needless to say I'm super busy which is why I haven't been on here much.