All Good Things Come To An End

I am super sad that this week is ending. For many reasons.

It was Kevin's first full week on Summer break. Yup. That means I got to spend all day, every day with him. We took advantage and decide to have Family Fun Week (more to come in future posts) and did lots of fun mini vacations. Tomorrow is the first day of the first tournament for his summer gig, so I will be back to playing the single mom role once again. Sigh. It was a great week though!

The big reason though is that this weekend marks 12 weeks since our life was changed, and little man was born! It doesn't seem like it's been that long, but alas, it has been. Which means Monday morning my desk chair will no longer be empty. :-( My routine that I've established over the past 12 weeks will no longer be. My day will no longer depend on nap time, or feeding time, but meeting times. I will spend 8+ hours a day away from my baby. That's more than double the amount of time I've been away in the past 12 weeks combined. In one day. My 4pm anticipation will no longer be for Kevin to come home to US, but for me to come home to THEM.

My heart breaks at the thought of not being with him all day. At the thought of what I will be missing out on. At the sound of every cry while he tries to take a bottle.

My desire my entire life was to be able to stay at home with my kids and raise them. Babies need their mommas, and mommas need their babies. We are doing everything possible to make that dream a reality, and I have total faith that it WILL be a reality, I just don't know if it will be in a week, a month, or a year.

At least I know that Logan will be home with Kevin since he's off for the summer (actual, as of now for the Fall too...) and when he's busy, both grandmothers are itching to get some time with the baby, so at least he'll be well taken care of by family.

Still it doesn't ease the pain that come Monday my daily life will look totally different than it did this past Monday.

Possiblities

Hi!!! It's me...the one who post on here less often than I should.

Between Wyldlife/Younglife, friends, work, sewing, reading and trying to keep our place not looking like a bomb went off, I just don't have the time (or maybe it's patience) to boot up my laptop, wait 10 minutes for it to actually turn on, and type something up. Okay, maybe it's laziness too. :-)

Well, we are potentially facing big changes in our lives, and I want to keep track and be able to look back at the process, especially if we have to do it again sometime.

We are beginning to look at houses!!!!!!!!! Eeekkkk!!!! Super exciting!!!

We received our pre-approval letter early last week, and the next day our realtor sent us a list of houses in the area. There were two on the list that we really like and are going to see on Monday. I'm really excited! I know the first one needs to some, work that's what we want. We want something to work on, and have projects as long as the house is livable in the process. So we'll see how they turn out.

We are really relying on God through this, and know that what we get is going to be a total blessing from Him. We have our expectations set high for where and what we want, but you can't put God in a box, right?

I'm not getting my hopes up, I know the longer we stay were we are, the more we can save and the less stress we will feel. It may be a year from now until we find "the one", and I'm okay with that.

I guess this will help keep me accountable for posting :-)

P.S. I haven't forgotten about the Proverbs 31, I have a few verses finished in my notebook, I'm just to lazy to type them up...